To actually find reasons to dedicate myself into playing games seriously and contribute to the team.

First of all, I'm not the best player obviously, but I'm also not the worst player. With enough commitment, I can live up to the team's expectations.

I started streaming on twitch recently and I started wondering about where I'm going to end up if I'm just endlessly streaming without actually contributing anything to the stream. I want to do more then just play games for the 2-3 people watching my stream.

When I first started playing games, I just play it for fun and I barely rage at it, but If I want to be better at the game, I can't really "play it for fun" anymore. I've been thinking into putting my time to actually grind games and actually touching the competitive mode in the games.

Again, I'm not a strong player but I want to join a team that is willing to take me in and grow together with me.